傻瓜

“傻瓜 我们都一样 受了伤却不投降 相信这个他不一样 却又再一次受伤 傻瓜... ...”

Really dunno what had happen...i really hope that what had happen with me all is a dream only, after wake up can forget it...

From the begining, i thought we can go togather very long...but know...i know that it only can be a memory dy...every memories that I & he appears in my mind every hours, every minutes & every seconds...I really hope i can for get him, but how can i forget?? do it easy?? we go many places before...even my hometown, melacca...every scene have our memories...I really dunno how to forget it...when i think about it, i really feel very sad....i think think think and think....every thing is he....I really dunno what can i do in this moment...

the days in KL, in this half year, my life always with him...meet him everyday, miss him everyday...i really dun wan lost him...i really dun wan....i really regret what i done before...i really dunno this will happen...

That time when i break up, he concern me, talk to me, bring me go out...& we become a couple. Wif him, i really very happy, i always feel that im very 幸福...i know sometimes i very 任性, i know i should not do that thing with you...but i really love you....i know i make you angry, im no heart...he bring me go many places...almost every shopping in KL i go before wif him...i really dunno what time i can forget him...

you say im not suit with you, i can change...i always wan to with you, because i miss you, i hope i can been with you, dun wan you so boring...i only want see you...cant meh?? if you dun wan like that, you can tell me ar...but now no chance dy...haiz...

I really hope that he can change his mind, but i know dun have any chance already, because he already hate me, he already angry with me...i really hope that he can give me 1 more chance, dun wan hate me...i really can change it...why dun wan trust me?? as you say, i need to growth up, but u dun wan give chanca to let me growth up...

i really really really miss you very much...all my minds appears your pictures...really very painful...

Thanks...

Today...quite shock cause can go out lim teh with 1 of my educater...he is very nice o....he let me know so many things that about me, and let me become more open heart...let me talt my unhappy thing and 'xin shi', really very good....

He let me feel i still have many friends, i still got others who is care about me, always be with me...and let me know, im not alone actually...thanks! after stalk with him, suddenly...i feel i relax dy...

what he say...just let it go! it pass dy...think also get nothing...this is the truth! i think...i really need 2 lt it go! he really not suitable for me, and what i want he maybe cant give me...so just forget it! Ya...i belive that i can do it de....jia you! GAmbate! yes!

thanks...eric! is u make my mood become better...thanks~

broken heart...really broken heart....`

already long time dun have this feeling...really long time...have about two years dy...i really feel that im very stupid...stupid until love someone like crazy...although i know that our relationship will finish in the future...but i never think that our relationship will end so fast...only togather 2 weeks...break dy...really dunno can say what...

the reason that he tell me i still cant belive that that is true de...is lie me de..cheat me de...he only want me fang diao this relationship so that we will not be so sad after we break...y the happy days always pass so fast?? but the sad thing always some very fast?? i really cant accept it....really cant....now my heart still very veey very pai...pain until cant sleep well...i ask myself dun wan think so many dy...but it is no work for me...tired...tired...really very tired....i trust that must be very people say i very stupid de....i reallised that i really very stupid...very foolish...haiz...

y i always so stupid...put so many feeling into this relationship?? why i want love him?? why he wanna treat me like that?? why why why?? i dun wan the 'dun no' answer....anyone camn tell me the correct answer? the detailed answer??

T.T i really wanna cry...what place can let me cry leh?? what thing can let me forget this thing as fast as posible leh?? i feel that i sorry at my good friends...really very very sorry about it...i just wanna hope u all can forgive me...forgive my stupid foolish thing before...

haiz...do istill can belive in love?? do love still work at me?? why all the boys wanna treat me like that?? why those who i really love wanna break my heart one time and one times?? why?? why they cant treat me good and lauyalty?? why wanna heart me?? why why why?? who can tell me??

really feeling not well...how many days i can fang kai this relationship leh??1 day?? 1 week?? i dunno...really broken heart dy...next time i dun wan put so many feel in others guys dy...this time not the 1st time...but it will be the last time! i promise myself...will not do this foolish things again...really will not!!!!!!!!!!!!

eugeen...yoyo...thanks ur help...i hope i can sembuh as well as i can....thanks a lot....i love u all!! i will love u all much much than the stupid...bad guys!! i promise myself...

cut-a-thon

Finally...finally...cutathon finished dy...hoo~woo~so tired o....but can take many experiance...quite nice actually...keke~~although i cut my hands so many times, but i still can cut so many hair...i think this is the gud job for me dy...although i only cut 25 hair in the cutathon.

So i hope i can have the anothers cutathon next time, and hope i can do it well on the next cutathon and can break my record...hehe~~GAMBATE!

Sad...heart broken??

哎~睡不着觉。。。好闷哦...不知道为什么，心突然觉得好痛好痛哦...好象大声地哭出来哦！可是....不能~闷在心里真不好受，又不知道能跟谁讲，没办法咯~唯一的办法就是写在这里，起码别人看了也不知道我是谁，也很少人会看。

哎~~真不知要怎么办好...突然间，快乐的事。。。都变成不愉快的事了。不知何时，他突然间对我好冷淡好冷淡哦。。。为什么呢？？我有做错事吗？他很忙？还是他对我没感觉了？我真是不知道。。。不敢想。。想了又让自己不开心。。。好难受哦。。。为什么要这样对我呢？？为什么一般的情侣能够很开心很开心？牵着手，走走。。。好好哦！为什么我不行呢？这是我的问题吗？or i already do something wrong?? 好久没对一个人。。。这么的喜欢他。。。爱他了。。。难道我就不能和喜欢的人一起吗？

看着他。。。虽然距离很近。。。很想抱着他。。。但又不敢。。。想问他东西。。。也不敢。突然间觉得我好没用哦！！天啊~~为什么会这样呢？？是我想太多了呢？？？还是什么？？真是不知道。。。i hate this feeling...really really very hate it!!! haiz.......

真希望是我想太多了。。。

mY n3w l!f3...

wow~~already didn't write blog...now very free so can write a blog...
year 2009...pass very fast...suddenly we come 2 July 2009...i already have my 4 months hairdressing course. the course can say can pass very fast and also can pass very slow, but i still feel it pass very fast. Many of my senior already wanna graduate, quite sad about this...i will miss u all....

Hairdressing course...is my new life...cause i never work in salon and never take the scissors and cut a perfect hair, wash others hair...and bla bla bla...but i really feel very happy cause can learn many thing about hairdressing and also can meet many of friends at there, we can play until very crazy, eat together & go lim teh at nite...thanks GOD can let me meet such friends!

I will learn the hairdressing hardly and will become a top hair stylist im my future...that is the one of my dream...so hope my dreams will come true...my friends....let us add oil to complete our hairdressing course....haha~~GAMBATE-neh!